17 August, Veralugama, Sri Lanka

By Sunila Galappatti

We’ve run away to the forest again.  Months before the first case of the new coronavirus surfaced in Wu Han, we took over the management of a friend’s house, just outside a strip of reserve forest.  When we could, we did weeks of small repairs around the house, preparing it to rent to travellers – it sits just an hour away from the airport, a perfect first or last stop on a holiday, we thought.  It was here, in March, that we were finishing the last repairs when we heard of the first case of local Covid-19 transmission in Sri Lanka.  We shopped for vegetables and essentials on the way home, deciding it was time to lock down (a laughably meagre shop for the two full months of strict lockdown enforced a week later).

 Needless to say, we cannot now rent out the house as planned, given the airport is closed and we are concerned not to introduce any risk to the village.  So, for now, we have connected the house to the internet so we can work in it, and we’re using it ourselves.  It takes us away from the tension of how one does and doesn’t unlock in a city, allows our son to play outdoors all day long and we hope will be a place where we spend less money.  We both work freelance: as assignments finish, new ones don’t now arrive and three streams of our income – dependent on how much is cricket is played and there being visitors to Sri Lanka – have dried up altogether.

 The night before we packed to come here – for three to six weeks, the longest period yet – I made two moves towards a new state of life.  I took the leather handbag I haven’t used since March and refilled it.  A strange time to do it, en route to a forest, but I had finally to admit to myself that the temporary cloth bag I was using, the one I usually take to protests, now with only my keys, wallet, mask and sanitiser in it, was no longer adequate to my reality.  It looked limp and needed a wash. 

The other thing I did was to use one of the small containers of parboiled beans and carrots, I’d frozen back in March along with others of curried okra, when we thought we were running out of vegetables, and before produce trucks had begun to supply our neighbourhoods under police curfew.  We decided then that we’d freeze small containers of what we had left so that each would be just enough to prolong the presence of vegetables in the diet of the toddler, if we ran out altogether.  We never needed them but we never used them either – so to defrost one now felt like I was saying that time had passed.  The truth is we never lacked for what we expected most immediately to lack – in our own lives the costs of this pandemic have so far been more to our collective than personal reality, and also to our states of mind.

Almost two weeks ago already, we went to the polls. When Parliament was dissolved at the time of Sri Lanka’s first Covid encounter and elections scheduled for June, we were angry – how could it be safe to hold elections?  Then as we proceeded under executive and military rule, with no legislature to hold them accountable, we began to feel that elections were essential.  Besides one couldn’t really declare it unsafe – a combination of surveillance, iron control and a working public health system had apparently kept us extraordinarily safe from the spread of Covid-19, as compared to almost anyone in the world.  Our fears began to deepen in different ways; they were not primarily fears of illness.

We planned to be early to the polling station – our rationale was to decrease our chances of having to go into quarantine if an elector in the same ward was later discovered to have voted while Covid-positive.  We are also keen voters and, in this case, perhaps the more so for knowing our vote would not really touch the overall result. Instead we drew comfort from conviction and the solidarity of voting as an extended family bloc.  It is usually a habit to take our son Kavan to the ‘voting place’ with us, we’ve done so at every previous election in his life. This time, for Covid reasons, we did not.  We checked with my brother – he wasn’t taking Kavan’s cousins either.  Instead, we joined my parents who were in the queue just ahead of us, all of us masked and clutching our own pens.  Indeed Covid-protocols at the polling station seemed exemplary, huge bottles of sanitiser and taps at entrance and exit, officials behind screens, clear directions of how to dispose of ones polling card oneself etc.  Where previously an election officer clutched the little finger of ones left hand, to paint the nail in purple indelible ink – a long held practice in South Asia against voter fraud – now she did it with a brush and bottle, never touching.

We waved to neighbours as we exited and to the policeman who had paid my parents a daily visit during and long after their quarantine in March, after they’d returned to Sri Lanka on the last flight from Bangladesh before our airport closed.  Then, still rueful we hadn’t taken the children with us this time, we went home and asked if they’d like us to drive them back by the ‘voting place’ so they could see it that way, at least.  Our son and our youngest niece said they would.  So we returned there in time to see my brother emerge from the polling station, in turn. 

Kusal and I had made a plan to work after voting – this time results would not be counted overnight but the next day (again to simplify the Covid-protocols) so we decided we should not sit around and anxiously waste the day (as we felt we had done the two previous).  But in fact the day went rather differently.   All the voters in our larger family are registered to the house my grandparents built, so there we gathered for breakfast and drifted into a long lunch.  It had all the suspension of a Christmas day, but a simpler joy; a far greater need to enjoy the suspension while it lasted.

15 August, Dehiwela, Sri Lanka

By Adilah Ismail

It’s been five months now but I still don’t know how to navigate life. Today, I step out for a walk with friends after being cloistered at home for a few days, restless and a little unwell. There’s an unusually large crowd gathered at the park at 6.30 am for a running event.

We pick up groceries on our way back. I’ve always enjoyed grocery shopping and now there’s a renewed pleasure in it. Today, we are the first customers at a freshly stocked supermarket. The first item in my basket is a fistful of fresh coriander leaves; garnishing for curries, a chutney for the week, salad staple. 

We’ve been taking precautions even as we go out for work, for errands, to meet people, to vote. Our family hasn’t mustered up the resolve to go out of Colombo yet. Certain members of the family would be considered high-risk for the virus and this knowledge hovers over everything we do. How do you maintain the right balance between being cautious and continuing to live your life in a pandemic? 

In many ways, it feels as though COVID-19 has tuned up the muffled ambient uncertainty, which has always hummed in the background of our lives, into a high pitched frequency we can’t brush aside. The last time I fully felt the weight of this was during my father’s illness a few years ago, when his life hung in the balance. There is that feeling of disorientation when your constants are yanked away and you are forced to reroute priorities, pause and then learn how to yield to the realization that perhaps, perhaps we were never really in control in the first place. 

When I get home, I shower and head to the kitchen to do some food prep for the next week. The coriander leaves are so fresh, it seems a pity to have them wilt even for a day in the fridge. I check Facebook and Facebook memories informs me that I had shared a quote on this day last year: ‘there are years that ask questions and years that answer’.

I hew the coriander stalks and leaves into uneven clumps and add them to the grinder. I know what kind of year this is.

13 August, London, UK

By Ian Burns

It feels odd writing to the Lockdown Journal when we feel so much less locked down, but a few treats over the past couple of weeks made me think about what London feels like now. We are coming to the end, we are told, of the heat-wave. Temperatures have been in the thirties for a few days and the atmosphere is humid. There is nothing ‘new normal’ about these weather conditions, but what I have been thinking about is how London has adopted a ‘post lockdown’ modus operandi.

A fellow university student, with me at Birkbeck, got her results and was lamenting that she will not have a graduation ceremony. Given she achieved a First, I felt for her. But completing her degree seemed to be very much a ‘post-virus thing’, not the ‘pre-virus thing’ she started. Neither she, nor I, are naïve enough to think we are definitely ‘post-virus’, but we note how the city is changing.

The country has ‘local lockdowns’, and has today been reminded that things are anything but normal nationally, by the attempt to grade A-level students for the exams that they were not able to sit. Young people’s futures are being disrupted by an algorithm, and a Big Brother approach, presuming favouritism and bias in the judgment of the teachers that actually taught these students. Almost 40% of results were downgraded from teacher predictions. The hapless Education Secretary has suggested that the government wants to avoid youngsters getting recruited for jobs for which they may not be qualified and for which they will not be able to develop the necessary ability. Yes, this country is the home of irony.

We have just revealed a shocking second quarter economic contraction, which tells us about the depth of this recession. What we cannot know is what its duration is going to be, but it will be complicated by Brexit at the end of this year. The prevalence and progress of the coronavirus will be fundamental to its duration, so it is unhelpful that the government is attempting to reclassify our death statistics, to paint itself in a better light. This dishonesty, allied to a diversionary media campaign focused on the plight of some luckless migrants putting their lives at risk in the English Channel, gives little confidence in our leadership. How many of today’s A-level school leavers will be voting Conservative in the next election?

The revival of the economy depends on activity and on both people and cash moving around the economy. And that is what I have noted feels like ‘post-lockdown London’. The highlight of my day and of the past few weeks was the opportunity this morning to book some theatre tickets. I shall be going next month to The Bridge Theatre where the seating capacity has been adapted for the audience to safely enjoy a performance and not to put anyone’s health at risk. Just seeing some theatre would be great but the thought that I shall see one of my all–time favourites, Kristen Scott Thomas, has made my joy all the greater.

This is not the first of my new experiences in recent days. Tonight, I am joining my daughter and her boyfriend at a wine bar near Elephant & Castle. We have a pre-booked time slot, and have a few criteria we need to meet, but this ‘normality’ will be very welcome. The proprietor of the bar business personally delivered a case of wines to me in early lockdown, as he strove to keep his business alive. I am delighted to be spending some money with him now — I suspect his business is under acute pressure.

Last night, I walked from my Wapping home to Primrose Hill to meet a friend. We walked to the hilltop to view London. In its heat haze appearance, and with many people in the park, things felt ‘normal’. If one could not hear London’s beating heart, it was obvious that it was beating. We walked back towards Camden and decided to chance an open door at a small bistro-restaurant. Could we have a table for two? To my surprise, we could, if we could return the table after 75 minutes.

Not only did we have a lovely meal and a bottle of an amazing English rose wine, but the wine was subsidised by the Chancellor’s scheme to revive the hospitality industry. Temped as I am to applaud his scheme and imagination, I am still troubled by relatively wealthy consumers, like me, having our meals subsidised, when food bank demand is hitting new peaks and the economy has shrunk by a fifth. I cannot deny, though, that I enjoyed how ‘normal’ the evening felt.

One conversation was about holidays and international travel. My friend’s ex-husband had been working overseas until recently, and her business takes her to the Far East and to North America. We both noted the number of our friends who had managed to get away for an overseas holiday this month. I have friends returning from Spain, Poland, Lithuania and from France. The rhythm of life has clearly been affected, but less so general lifestyles.

In the past fortnight, businesses like gyms have been able to reopen. I was able to meet my yoga teacher for the first 1:1 session since the early spring. Her normal studio is deemed too small to meet HSE (Health and Safely Executive) criteria so we now have a better space to work in, with a few interruptions for cleaning mats and surfaces. The gym itself, which is large and spread over three floors, is clearly under tremendous cash pressure. Although memberships, which were suspended, are now operating again, helping cash flow, I suspect that is more than absorbed by cleaning costs. There were more cleaning staff than clients present at each of my two visits.

The other ‘new normal’ is the routine of supermarket shopping. I had become used to having to queue to enter. This was during the period before mandatory mask-wearing. Now, everyone is politely masked up, but the queues are a distant memory. I have become quickly used to the change in circumstance – I think I would probably be irritated now if I could not just stroll in at my convenience. In a few months’ time, perhaps I will feel the same about a Primrose Hill restaurant, rather than being joyfully surprised that we could eat there without having booked. Here’s to the new normality in the autumn. 

3 August, Worcestershire, UK

By Rachel Smyth

Months down the line, the pandemic continues to bite. In the UK, it feels like it nibbled at us for weeks in the early stages then swallowed greedy mouthfuls as it took hold. Not fully content, it is now coming back for seconds.

Today, we found out that my husband is highly likely to lose his job. After four months of being furloughed, and a very real sense of uncertainty hanging over us, his company has decided they have no option but to reduce their workforce.

My husband’s post is one of those affected. He has been the sole earner for our family since our daughter was born just over three years ago. If he is unsuccessful in securing one of the remaining posts with his current company and is subsequently unable to find another job, then I may have to return to work earlier than we planned.

The fact this may become a reality makes my heart and mind race. I will lose another two years of looking after our daughter full-time. While being a stay-at-home Mum has without a doubt been my toughest “job” to date (the hours are shocking, the pay and breaks are non-existent and my boss is very demanding), it has also been the most rewarding thing I have ever done. If it comes to an end sooner than expected, I will be heartbroken.

I try to reassure my husband that we will be okay, that we have options if the worst happens and neither of us can get jobs. He feels the pressure of providing financially for our family. In turn, I feel the pressure of possibly no longer being able to provide our daughter with the same time, care and attention that she is so used to. Meanwhile, she has no idea of the uncertainty swirling around her. Her only concern is whether she can “…please have one more bounce on the trampoline…” before she has to go inside and get ready for bed.

30 July, Los Angeles, California, USA

By Rohitha Gunetilleke

I live across from Grand Central Market. On this summer afternoon, harsh light bounces off the concrete, the asphalt and the weary greens. From my studio window, I haven’t seen the Angels Flight ride for some time now. The slanted gondola that went up and down Bunker Hill, usually carrying a handful of selfie-capturing tourists on their twenty-five-cent journey to no-where, is latched and padlocked.

I think of my first visit to Grand Central Market, nearly 20 years ago, on a photographic field trip. I enter the rabbit hole willingly, recapturing the shadows along the long-lost hallways, past the fish stalls that sold whole Bonitos, fish heads and guts by the pound, now long gone. Fishtails jutting out of cardboard boxes, dented mangoes, blemished papayas, I step forward slowly, cranking the film through my Pentax ME.  I wonder whatever happened to that camera.  I step over the mountain of day-old bread and now I am walking on a wet beach in Negombo, Sri Lanka, a fishing hamlet north of Colombo. I walk past a row of fishing huts and stop in front of a silhouetted child under a cajan roof. There, I retake my first photograph.

Lal Hegoda went through my stack of thirty-six postcard size black and white prints and fished out that photo of the child. In that slightly underexposed photograph, the insipid light filters through the cajan roof barely illuminating her chintz frock and her tiny hands. Lal showed the print to the class that Saturday and got his darkroom tech to print me an enlargement. I long for that print now. Did I lose it somewhere along my life, while traveling through curfew to catch a plane in 1983, or chasing after a wailing red light that carried my wife on her last journey?

I have sat by this window for several months now, while the world is slowly dying. Social distancing couldn’t latch me like the Angels Flight. In front of me, on my computer screen, my world appears in 23,122 photographs, two unpublished novels, and a folder of poems.

I emerge from the rabbit hole and start revising a strand of a poem.

*

 You no longer notice the tarred-out road signs

you get to where you got to go.

The sea lulls you

to see only what you need to see.   

*

I leave the window to boil water. I am hungry for a cup of dark tea.

30 July, Kolkata, India

By Puja Bhattacharjee

During the two and a half month total lockdown, I had got used to waking up to a silent city. I woke up to the sound of birds and came to love the natural sounds – of whooshing winds, falling rain, and murmuring leaves. The first day the traffic started back on the roads was an assault on my senses.

Recently, my state government announced two days of total lockdown every week to curb the rising cases of the coronavirus. Yesterday was one of those days this week. Today I woke up to the annoying sound of the traffic – noisy car engines, blaring horns, and tire screeches – again. I now look forward to the locked-down days. I wish I could go out and observe the quiet city. I have never seen Kolkata in this avatar. All available past and present accounts I’ve read, describe it as a bustling metropolis teeming with people in every square inch of the space. 

The inside of our flat is a very different story. Be it an open day or a total locked down day, there is hardly ever any silence. When we – me, my parents and sister – are not arguing among ourselves, there is the noise from Netflix, music on the radio, or YouTube. Sometimes, especially on the locked-down days, I want to go out for some quiet. I make do with some time to myself on the terrace. I have never before paid attention to the varieties of birds around me. Now I do. In the evening, I see flocks of birds flying home in an almost V-shaped formation. They fly too high for me to tell what kind of birds they are. 

Towards the end of June and in July, things were starting to feel normal again. I was visiting my neighbour’s cocker spaniel named Ajoli (meaning an innocent girl in the Assamese language). I was also visiting their granddaughter Hiya who lives about 10 minutes away again. Holding four-year-old Hiya or giving Ajoli belly rubs felt therapeutic to me. When I visited Hiya after two-and-a-half months of total lockdown, she had forgotten who I was – Puja Mashi (mother’s sister). Ajoli barked at me continuously for some time when I tried to pet her, till she calmed down and finally recognized me. She turned on her back, baring her belly, asking me to rub it.

There have been a few positive cases in my housing society in the last few weeks. Everyone is on their toes again. I can no longer visit Hiya or Ajoli. I make do with petting Miu Miu, a stray cat. Sometimes, I sit on the edge of the empty field with overgrown grass. The children no longer play cricket or football. In the early morning, some adults jog or exercise around it. If Miu is around, I tap my thighs, urging him to climb up into my lap. He sits there and purrs while I scratch his head, chin, and back. In this strange world, I have come to love the little pleasures.

28 July, Dipton, County Durham, UK

By Margaret McPhail

In the before, as retired people, we had spontaneity we had worked for decades to earn —

We could?  Perhaps?

What about…?

Yes, let’s do that!

Let’s go there?

There’s this film at the Tyneside/exhibition at the Side/new play at Live

We could have lunch there?

We’ll get shopping on the way home

After we’ve dropped in at the library, OK?

Let’s invite the family for a meal?

In the now, we have to book slots —

For shopping deliveries

For visiting Gibside

For visiting Beamish Museum

Our life is small and controlled.

In the future, we don’t know.

21 July, Veralugama, Sri Lanka

By Sunila Galappatti

This morning I feel the horizon drawing in again.  So let me start last Sunday.  We were in this very house by the forest packing the car to drive across the country in the morning, the longest distance we’d have gone since lockdown. 

Over the weekend a sudden outbreak of COVID cases linked to a single residential rehabilitiation centre, was leading to wild talk of a ‘second wave’ in Sri Lanka, the terminology itself casually inflated on an island that has largely escaped having any COVID ‘wave’ at all.   This is not to underestimate either the risks – especially as one person tested positive after transfer to a prison facility – or the hope that a local outbreak would remind us not to relax so much.  It seemed in places like people had really thought the crisis was over and were shocked to find it still with us.

We too exhibited delayed-reaction/head-in-the-sand type behaviour of the sort we should have outgrown once and for all, five months ago.  We focused on how not to cancel our trip.  Should we leave immediately, we wondered, and drive through the night before a new curfew might be called in the morning?  Even conscious of elephant crossings at night and the grave risks of falling asleep at the wheel, we did think about it, more than usually desperate to go, more fearful of renewed locking than I would have predicted.  We didn’t do it but we packed the car in a state of tension – it wasn’t just the risk of cancellation but the fact that what used to be an ordinary journey now felt momentous.  A suspected wild boar in the bushes nearby helped to heighten the moment.

Nothing happened overnight and in the morning we made our omelette sandwiches and set off as planned – the plan being not to stop at all on the 5-6 hour drive except once for the loo in a place we’d decided would be the least busy.  Indeed, when we pulled up to Habarana Rest House, it was closed.  But a woman playing with her daughter outside one of the rooms told me just to go in and use the toilet anyway.  Her daughter, the same size as our son, was so delighted to see another child she rushed up and threw her arms around him.  We their parents caught our breath, as one does now, though we would still never stop them.

Several hours and a mess of children later – this time my son and his three much beloved older cousins – I found the stillness to realise we had arrived as intended.  My husband was putting our son to bed and my brother was talking to his daughters as they got themselves ready to sleep.  Sitting in the living room outside, I heard my brother talk to his girls about the long history of Anti-Semitism, the Second World War, the abrupt loss of Palestinian homeland and the aggressions of modern Israel.  He did it exceptionally well of course, that didn’t surprise me.  As snatches of the conversation drifted out to me in the quiet of the sitting room, across from the quiet of the lagoon, I was preoccupied with something else.  I was struck just how normal the moment felt, after so long, and what a relief it was. 

About two months ago, in slightly eased lockdown we’d gone for a drive in the evening and the three year old, as if aware the drive was a sop and not the real thing, said to us ‘when the curfew and quarantine are over can we go to the cousins’ house?’ We have since told him that the quarantine isn’t really over though the curfew is – but we wanted to come good on what we’d promised him, who missed people most.  And here we were.

After two more lovely days with our family, we drove on to our best of beaches a little further north.  Kavan napped in the car and Kusal and I talked.  We’ve always had time to talk to each other, never more so than in lockdown, but again I was struck suddenly by a sense of space around our conversation – after months, the horizon was at the horizon. I cannot really describe to you my relief.  There is surely something about travelling distance.

One afternoon I saw a crab scuttling along the beach and nearly ran to get Kavan, only gently to remind myself this time it wasn’t a snatched outing, we would be staying here some days and there would be other crabs.  The abandon of missing a moment felt special in itself.  We spent three days in and out of sand and sea, we bought and steamed lobster because we could just about stretch to it at no-tourist prices, we explored the ruins of a grand old house next door and  when we left it was to the heart-breaking wails of a boy who wanted us just to ‘leave me at Trincomalee!’

We made two stops on the way back – once to buy buffalo curd at Kantale (obligatory, pandemic or not) and then again for the toilet at the place we’d stopped before.  This time it was the father of the family who let us use it. We realised the connection because we recognised him suddenly as a waiter at Habarana Rest House whom we’d chatted to in the pre-COVID life when we stopped here for tea on the long drives that were much more customary to us then.  He’d told us then he had child the same age as ours.

As I write this morning, Kusal and Kavan are out at work on a nearby coconut estate.  Kusal texts me a photo of our son scooping out the insides of a king coconut. Also by text, we agree we must find ways for him to return to an existence out of doors; at least some version of a life he used to live, in which he accompanied his father on all manner of errands and loved visiting the market and the bank.  Another text arrives – it is my father this time.  He says our polling cards have arrived.

18 July, Munich, Germany

Remembering the first day of school, 12 May, 2020
By Kian Hein, 11

After two months of home schooling, I was excited to learn that I was to be one of the first children to go back to school.  I did not have many days left in primary school and the teachers wanted to prepare us for secondary school. I was looking forward to going back, seeing my friends and catching up with them.

Before going back, the teachers sent us a list of extra things we had to bring to school, like disinfectant, spare masks, a small towel and a packed lunch because the canteen was closed. We also had to watch a video that the headmistress made with instructions on how to behave at school when we go back. She said that things would be different from how it used to be and that it was very important to be careful and to obey the new rules because of COVID.

I was the only child on the school bus and felt nervous and excited at the same time. I had my mask on the whole time. When we got to school, we had a very nice welcome by the teachers who cheered us with homemade ‘Welcome Back! We Missed You’ banners when we entered the building one by one. I was very happy to see my friends again although we were split into different (smaller) classes and had many strict rules to follow.

At first it was very weird because of all the rules and many things were no longer allowed. Most of the school had been closed off. We had to wash our hands properly or use disinfectant when entering and leaving the classroom. During lessons, everyone had their own distanced desk. We sat on our own so we could pull off our mask, but only when everyone else was seated.  

During recess we had to wear our masks and every class had a play area. I was a little sad I could not race to my friends, but instead I had to stick to my play area and only interact with the children from my class and no one else. I got used to it after a while and we didn’t have to use a mask during recess after a couple of weeks (but still had to wear it when entering and leaving the school building for recess).

We were not allowed to sing or to play football because we would have had to share the ball, so we played tip kick instead. But least I could see my friends and teachers for real and not just on my screen.

12 July, Saône-et-Loire, France

By Antonia Lloyd

After 105 days of family confinement in our small Oxford home, we have escaped to one of the most underpopulated parts of Europe – Saone et Loire, the most southern Burgundy region, renowned for its white chardonnay grape, sleepy countryside, and stocky white Charollais beef cattle.  Never has the cliché ‘like a dream come true’ felt so real.

The last four months of social distancing has felt horribly tough and relentless yet, undoubtedly, we have been the lucky ones – we aren’t part of the army of key workers that have had to combat the virus at close quarters; haven’t faced the breadline like many families with food banks to rely on; or dealt with the anxiety of one of us having to recover from contracting Covid-19. Our life has simply felt repetitive and slowed to an unprecedented snail like speed with one constant centre of gravity: our home.  The weekly ritual of Vita and Amelia home schooling, Harry home working, and myself freelancing on an avalanche of free consultancies for prospective TV jobs that will hopefully happen, has been an unusual social experiment of living together day-in-day-out at work and at play. Teenage angst, work stress and constant deadlines have taken their toll but, all in all, it has been a manageable experience which is more than many can probably say. Mental health issues nationwide, school regression, and long-term unemployment weigh down the majority in our immediate society, and if we have dodged these, then we are the lucky ones.

And now, we are fortunate enough to have found ourselves in a rural idyll, an overgrown French country farmhouse requiring attention inside and out.  The desire to prune, trim, mow, clean, tile, paint and make jam is overwhelming, and at last the opportunity arises to stop consuming constant negative stories about the pandemic. A new location – wherever it might have landed – is a rush of fresh air to the lungs, giving life and hope to our tired and repetitive set of routines. Here local worries and country issues replace the global fears that we’ve obsessed over for months.  Our 91-year-old neighbour, Fernant, who lived through the Second World War here, has run out of fresh grass for his nephew’s pony, so we now have a lodger in the form of ‘Night’, an inappropriately named Belgian-born cream coloured mini Shetland pony that is as least night-like as you can imagine. His days are spent roaming around the field gorging himself on sweet grass while his kind eyes lure us over and elicit head pats, carrots, and the urge to plait his mane. Night has won us over; although we have renamed him Jean which is more befitting our gentlemanly friend.

Our other lodger is a local half-starved grey cat called Felix, whose owners have long given up on him, that we renamed Chevalier a few years back – a great idea of my nephew Idris who at the time was knight-obsessed.  Back then Chevalier was a handsome moggy with elegant poise and a full coat; it seems Covid times have been tough on him too and he has re-emerged a skeletal version of his former self, or a ghost, as Vita calls him. We feed him daily with a food that promises reimbursement if a transformation of vitality doesn’t occur within 21 days- never has the brand faced such a tough test in such unprecedented times.  After several days his ribcage is less visible and his coat is fuller, but his lethargy is somewhat worrying and at times I wonder if he is indeed dead as he refuses to move when the car passes close by him. It strikes me that many people, like Chevalier, will emerge from the Covid experience a shadow of what they once were with life less technicolour and varied than it once was. The challenge now is to pick ourselves up and learn to live alongside this virus and find the colour, joy and space wherever that may be.